and I dont need to forget myself by means of alcohol or drugs

"You see, freedom has a way of destroying things..."

Scott Westerfeld (Uglies Series)


I may not be very good at decluttering my room.

But my blog really needed a new layout. Thoughts if any, are welcomed.

I went to an Easter party last night. I love how people pretend they dont want to karaoke and then end up being the ones who wont let the mics go, tsk. Smartie chocolate cake and wine surprisingly is not a bad mix.

I can't believe how stupid I am when it comes to him. I pride myself in being strong, independent and all the jazz that comes from that Destinys Child song and yet Im letting myself be thwarted time and time again and I keep going back for more. I should be smarter than this.

I have cut off a lot of friendships.

I have made new ones.

I cant help but ache for my lost friendships though. This is why I don't keep photo albums. Sometimes old photos stir up painful memories of friendships that no longer exist.

Her farewell was Saturday night. I didnt go because I was legitimately preoccupied being a godmother *squee*. Pictures when I get them but yes, strange as it may seem, I have a second godchild now!

Speaking of pictures!

Baby James time!



He is adorable!

And he totally knows me now. He's so well behaved and whenever he sees me, we play and Im just all omg, my uterus gets all tingly. I've told my parents to enjoy him though. I don't see myself with child for a long long time!

He's barely four months! He's massive! He's going to be so tall!

...No, im not REALLY a crazy doting aunt =)

But gosh, he's beautiful. :) SO CUTE!!!!!

Excuse me, I must go, my dormant maternal instincts woke up and are telling me to sleep now..

I'm so incoherent tonight. I should just sleep...but my mind just won't turn off tonight.