I know not with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones

The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be.

-Anne Frank


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Adam Merrins song "Still Alright" is really beautiful and its on my constant playlist. Its just very soothing and I adore it. Its also been used in key plot changes in three of my favourite shows, How I Met Your Mother (when Robin and Ted realised they could still be friends in spite of everything), Greys Anatomy (when George finally remembered he had slept with Izzie - a moment which btw turned me completely off that show as a fan) and Greek (when Rusty and Casey finally went home to their parents together in one car),

I have a theme song every year. And thats probably my song for 2008.

Its been a very turbulent year for me, but inspite of it all Ive lost and am on the verge of losing, corny as it seems..Im still alright. I know I have something much better planned for me.

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I never know what to do till its too late to change anything and its done. I always come up with the perfect comeback an hour after the biting remark directed at me, or the perfect step to do two steps after, or the perfect action to take much much too late.

Its no use rethinking, and often I just let it go. But I always wish I was more prepared for it, and hopefully I will be the next time.

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People have unusually low expectations of me in matters important to me and unusually high expectations of me in matters that arent. I dont understand what it is about me, but its true.

I am sad about this.

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Friendships come and go too fast. Theres this one girl, who one year ago, was my friend. We texted each other a lot and met up with each other loads, and we were just great friends. We shared everything together, or now that I think about it, I shared everything about me to her.

And this year, she is barely what I call a friend anymore.

A lot can change when 'cooler' friends show up in your life.

And yes, even at 22, there are still our versions of what 'cool' is.

But its okay. Friendships are transient. And I firmly believe people in our lives are led that way for a reason and when their reason for being there is obsolete, or maybe your reason for being in their lives is unneccessary, then you move on.

But you will of course still treasure the mark they made in your life, even if they neglect your mark in theirs.

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I've always had weak ankles and yesterday I tripped when trying to teach the youth a dance. Of course, the heels might have had some thing to do with it but still. My ankle twisted and I was really unsure if I had hurt myself or not, but I guess that means no heels for a while because the ankle itself is kind of sore when I put weight on it.

Which makes me recall the fact that I've hardly ever had any major injuries and accidents in my life, in occasions where I should have been badly hurt but a smart move in the last min (in this latest incident, when I twisted, I lifted it at the last minute so I wouldnt land on it and injure it further) saved me from further injury. Ive always lifted things like this up as luck and now I come to think it may have been just extra protection from God.

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Last Monday, I came home before the sun set, miraculously early from work and in the sight of that miracle, I decided to go jogging. Okay, fine, really brisk walking. I strolled from my apartment and brisk walked around my area and you know what, sweating it out for the first time in a long time (my last break of sweat must have been Sydney's pilgrimage walk o_0). And you know what, I pushed myself to break a sweat and I could understand again why I used to and only my laziness really made me stop. Cant blame lifestyle as Ive always had a slow paced one with a dash of hectic. But yeah, I'm hopeful I can maintain a weekly if not bi-weekly workout.

Unlike unhealthier vices (food counts *sob*) , it gets my mind off things, and yet gets me fit. Yay for that.

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Its November 2008 already, and Ive been seeing Christmas themed decorations slowly sprouting up in the most unexpected of places. I, on the other hand, hardly decorate my own room anytime of the year, so what of Christmas?

Ill perhaps get some tinsel for the balcony and candy canes to hang (and to be slowly eaten heheheh) or maybe (fake) mistletoe for our home door so I have an excuse to hug or cheek kiss whoever comes to visit =)

My way of joking is to tell the truth. It is the funniest joke in the world

Maybe one of these days I'll be able to give myself a gold star for being ordinary. And maybe one of these days I'll give myself a gold star for being extraordinary. And maybe one day I won't need to have a star at all.

-Sue Bender

Yesterday, I walked around The Mall arm in arm with my father. He helped me 'shop' so to speak for computer gadgets I've long wanted to purchase. And now I have.

My mom laughed that I was happier setting up my new toys than I ever was when I shopped for stuff thats supposed to be what girls squeal over. You know. Handbags, shoes and clothes.

I guess I'm just not that girly.