every moment before this one depends on this one

"I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can't tell fast enough, the ears that aren't big enough, the eyes that can't take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone."

-Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close








Thats my baby James. But these are old pictures. He's 7 months old now and much bigger and wow he's going to be so tall! I cant wait till I can bribe er coax him with ice cream and toys!!

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Like a glutton for punishment, I turned around and despite the alarm bells, the fear, the OHNOYOUSHOULDNT, I stepped purposefully back toward the very person I had heartbreakingly said goodbye to not long ago. It was like a trap we both knew we had to avoid and yet, here we go. Again.

I hope this is my last again with you because I dont think my heart can take it anymore.javascript:void(0)

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I think Madonna was amazing to do this on her site:


He was the King of Pop and she is clearly the queen.

Despite the controversy he has been awash in his entire life, I just know his music has been so influential (In The Closet, Black and White, Scream, Remember The Time...hot hot hot videos!) and there will never be another MJ. I was rooting for his comeback esp the 50 concerts dates and now Im devastated he will never be able to rise above the sh*t people were giving him.

In a world awash with forgettable music and 15 minute fame seekers, he is a legend.

No, ladies and gentlemen, I retract my statement.

He was NOT the King of Pop. He was the entire freaking kingdom and with him gone we have a music landscape filled with forgettables and 15 min fame seekers.

This made me sad:


Alright he has a mixed legacy, particularly with what happened in his latter years. But Macaulay Culkin went on trial to DEFEND him and said NOTHING happened..But I just cant believe someone who moulded my childhood is now gone. Everyone seemed to forget he's just human and expected him to churn out hit after hit, after controvery after controversy time and time again. He's just human and his death showed his vulnerability and fragile being.

But Im happy he's in a better place now. He was living a life filled with injustice and I guess now he can finally rest in peace.

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Im getting older. I cant handle all night drinking sessions anymore and I cant function without sleep! I hate it. I was so blur at work the next day haha! I used to mock my then 20 year old friends when I was in uni but now, I totally know what they feel. I feel OLD and my back hurts and I feel creaky in the knees and wah!

This sucks.

But Id do it all again any day.

But maybe with a weeks rest in between?!

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I am trying to be healthy and I bought a 25 pack of green tea early June to drink at work so I wont be tempted by coffee or easy to order ABCs or a drink at Coffeebean.

June is coming to an end.

I have 13 packets left. WHAT!?

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I watched Angels and Daemons. Now, Ive read the book ages ago and I knew exactly what to expect.

Or so I thought.

Seeing it live on screen was a whole different matter and I swear my heart hurt plenty of times throughout the film. I was saddened.

But Im glad they said about the Catholic Faith,"My mind tells me I'll never understand faith. An my heart tells me Im not meant to."

If nothing else, it was nicely put.

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Julys just around the corner and its been such a good year thus far! I hope the rest of 2009 is just as good or even better!